A Letter to My Ex

S,

No matter what happens to us as we grow older you will always have a special place in my heart as a friend and mother of my child. You see I am writing this because I think you need a reminder that I care about you and I think you are an amazing person with truly special gifts. Unfortunately for us my sexuality would have always been a questions and a source of angst for me. You see I could have never given you the love that you were deserving of if I wasn’t even sure who I wanted to love. It pains me to say this and as I write this I tear up a bit. Leaving you was the hardest decision of my life. I know people thought it was easy for me but I think or rather I hope you know it was not. You are not that easy to get over.

I think it is obvious to both of us that the best thing that came out of our relationship is our beautiful and precious daughter. What an amazing gift she is to both of us! There hasn’t been a day since our daughter was born that I didn’t recognize that you could out parent me 10 to 1 and it seemed like with little effort. You have this ability to just recognize when she needs something and what she needs. You are an amazing mom and our daughter is so lucky to have you. You are one of the most selfless people I have ever met and I know without a shadow of a doubt that you will always ensure that little girl is happy and healthy. Please remember that you are not alone in parenting, although I may not be in the house or see her everyday I love her more than anything. I am and will always be here for both you and her. Although this has provided turmoil and at times anything but a level ground to walk on, we will get through this.

Lastly, know that I do not regret any of it. I did love you, and I need to thank you for all you gave me. You showed me love and compassion and took my hand and guided me out of a very dark tunnel and told me all along the way it was going to be alright. That is the kind of compassion and love I know you will instill in our daughter and I am proud to say that you are the mother of my child.